The initial aim of this project was to create an artistic book that explored the issues of social media obsession within society. Representations of these issues were to be showcased within a publication through creative practices such as photography, illustration, graphic design, etc. to act as a warning to viewers of the consequences they may encounter if they are to carry on abusing the use of social media at the current rate.
At the beginning of production, I encountered a major threat to the completion of the project. Due to circumstances outside of my studies that I had no control of, I lost a large amount of focus within my work, leading to a lack of ideas, motivation and general well-being which made even the smallest task feel impossible, filling me with an overwhelming amount of self-doubt. Being an individual that struggles with confidence and self-assurance anyway, this caused huge consequences as time passed on as the proposed project schedule wasn’t followed, tasks were being forgotten about or incomplete and I suddenly came to an abrupt stand still and creative block, preventing any progression. I found my way back on track after realising that I wasn't going to achieve anything from burying my head in the ground and hiding away from my priorities. This isn’t the way industry works, so I had to use my initiative to come up with an appropriate solution to my problems.
I stress excessively within the production processes of my work as I tend to jump from idea to idea without settling down and digging deeper into an initial one. I overcomplicate things by giving myself too many tasks to complete half-heartedly rather than choosing a small number of focus points to truly understand and complete in detail. By using the mentor sessions with Jennifer, I learnt that by understanding and appreciating extensive research and production processes, this enables success to be reached in all areas as a truly investigative outcome can be accomplished because of this broad spectrum of knowledge. From this learning curve I was able to come up with three questions to fully focus on within my project, which would aid the progression process and transform the project from a simple research based outcome into an investigative one:
- Why is society so obsessed with social media?
- Why do people feel the need to share so much information online?
- Is it making an impact on their lives? their jobs? their relationships?
Having these as a basis for future concepts and ideas improved my focus and creative flow, as when I encountered conceptual problems or felt as though I was veering off track slightly, I could relate back to these initial questions and ask myself whether my outcomes answered them successfully and if not, what could be done to ensure that they could be?
I had initially proposed that I would be working with a large team of creatives to produce a mass number of final outcomes, however this proved to be unachievable as time passed and problems regarding the reliability of others were encountered. I understand that when working within industry, a large team of creatives is beneficial to have to ensure that production time is reduced and goals are achieved at a quicker speed, however I found that in this academic environment, individuals didn't have the same attitude regarding work as me, which resulted in many let downs and cancellations. Photoshoots were abandoned or postponed, deadlines were missed and I could see the overall quality of work that I was producing dropping because of this. I took it upon myself to use this opportunity to refine my skills within post-production, graphic design and makeup and hair to enhance the project, making the outcome a complete personal journey.
Initially I was worried that this decision would mean that I would not be able to produce content of a professional standard, as I believed my skills outside of my chosen subject field to be limited and of a substandard level. By using initiative to self-educate myself within areas of Photoshop, Indesign, and makeup application, using online tutorials on Youtube and various other search engines; along with help and advice from IT technicians and other creatives, I was able to develop a broad range of expertise that I now have advanced knowledge and technical skill within. Being able to complete this project and continue into the workplace with these new skills, is the most valuable factor that I have attained from this process, as it has proved that when I push my creative boundaries and place myself outside of my comfort zone within new subject fields, I am able to achieve greatness and success because of my willingness and determination to learn and better myself. Despite this triumph, I need to ensure that I do not become totally reliant on myself in future, as it is an effective working process to have a committed and motivated team surrounding you when the opportunity is available.
The direction of the project changed a number of times during the development stages as the ideas that I was creating were simply not objective enough. When shared within tutorial sessions, my mentors explained how I was producing a project that was far too moralising, with no factual evidence to support any of the ideas that were evolving from it. It was in the best interests of the advancement of the project to alter the perspective to a subjective viewpoint, so that I could continue using the ideas from my creative and abstract outcomes, however using myself as a foundation instead. After using myself within test shoots and attaining new skills, I knew that I had the potential to refine and enhance the project in a positive way, however it was my confidence issues that seemed to be holding me back yet again. I am extremely proud that I took on this personal challenge - despite feeling extremely uncomfortable throughout the duration - and was able to push my creative boundaries through the use of myself as a model and an inspiration of this project. I have gained boundless amounts of confidence which I feel is evident within my final outcomes, as I have been able to communicate through written, verbal and visual means to achieve desired outcomes using skills that I didn't believe I possessed prior to this.
Admittedly my time management at the start of project production was poor and definitely not of the industry standard that was expected of me. After realising that this was only damaging my own success rate I was able to refocus the project accordingly, demonstrating exceptional planning skills. By rescheduling internal deadlines to the current time period I had left to complete the project, I was able to achieve a large number of goals within a short space of time, enabling me to get back on track and gain the self-assurance needed to excel as a creative. Being able to set internal time limits and challenges was a beneficial skill to possess as it allowed me to keep on top of workload, with further time being available to use afterward if needed, achieving a calm and collected mainframe. I feel that this skill coincided with communication skills, as information was easier to relay back to others when thoughts were clear and organised in my own mind. Communication with tutors was a difficult aspect of the project for me, as I often take constructive criticism to heart and let it damage my confidence.
My proneness to being a perfectionist also proved to be a paramount issue throughout, as I tend to over analyse outcomes so thoroughly, that I no longer find aspects of them successful. This had a domino effect on my motivational attitude, as I would constantly feel as though my ideas were not worthy, didn't fit the brief I had created for myself or just simply weren't good enough. When in stressful situations it was a lot easier to jump straight into a negative mindset, and allow myself to feel defeated than it was reflect on ideas and understand what was needed to improve. I have been able better my acceptance of all feedback - positive and negative - from this process, as I now understand that tutors and other peer mentors are there to aid the progression of ideas to achieve the best possible outcomes. This is a transferrable skill that I will be able to use further on within my studies and within my industry career if I wish to achieve work of the high quality. Being open to new ideas and enhancements enables endless opportunities for growth and development.
Although I was initially a little let down with the final outcome, as it was different to what I had planned and expected within my proposal, I am extremely pleased with the journey I have taken during this final major project. Not only has is allowed me to grow as a creative, it has enabled me to understand the ways in which I work most effectively to produce amazing outcomes. Being able to veer away from proposed ideas when new ideas grow from ‘happy accidents’ and learning that there is perfection in imperfection is a new skill that I have begun to apply to my working practices and I wish to improve on further so that I can excel within the future.
I feel as though the overall concept that I have followed along this journey has only been touched upon slightly, as I think that the concepts that could be investigated are endless. If I continue onto a Masters level of education, which I am hoping too, I think that the aims and objectives that were met within Delusive could be explored on a deeper level, reflecting on the social media interactions of others as well as the personal posts and online presence of one individual to understand the effects this has on self-esteem, opinions and general outlook on life.